I have been doing some thinking the past few days and I have made some decisions that will change things in my life. For the last 12 years, I had worked for a public school system; monitoring special needs children on buses. I loved it and it was very fulfilling to me. My co-workers were awesome. The best you could ever find anywhere. When I had to leave my job, it was one of the hardest things I've done. Everyone was sad, lots of tears and promises to stay in touch, much like you would expect when you graduate from school. I did get several addresses, phone and cell numbers; along with email addresses. But, sad to say, it hasn't worked out that way. I have tried to call and send pictures but I have, only 2 friends that stay in touch. One writes because she doesn't like to text; the other calls. It isn't that I find fault. They have busy lives and as I've learned through life, the best made promises 'fall to the wayside'. We all meant well at the time but things happen. I love them, they were my family. Many of them always will be. But now it's time we are let off the hook of those promises. It was good for then. They have left a mark in my life and on my heart forever. So, I say farewell to another wonderful chapter in my life, ready to get on to the next.
The next decision I made was to let my Facebook and Myspace go. It isn't that exciting to me. I go on myspace now, only to mess with the music and facebook, well, to me; it's boring. If I put more of myself into it, I surely would get more out of it. But, I need more. I need things that challenge me, teach me something or snap up my interest. Even my journal has not interested me in the way it did. Sometimes you can have so much going on that it takes away from other things. I find myself flittering from one site to another. I intend to write but I will be taking some idle time to refocus. While I do that, I'm staying in my family sites that my BN worked up.
When I come back to my journal, I hope I will be able to extract a few comments from people besides my sister and niece. My objective was to have a journal that we could all share. I just want to write a thought or memory but spur others on to share their thoughts and memories , as well. That's what would make this journal more exciting.
This is a bit of what I have going on in my thoughts and a bit of what's in my heart.
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3 comments:
from my sister
Hi S,
It's unsettling when we think things will be a certain way and then they don't turn out that way at all. Change is very unsettling but life is change only now you have time to actually see it.
The good thing is now you can do other things and you are only limited by your imagination.So go for it and try some other things and have fun .
I will miss reading your journal but I hope you will continue writing even if it isn't read by others.
Love to you,
CF
J.
Yes changes can mess you up. The biggest change is the death of a loved one. Losing Mom and Dad was bad enough then when I lost my partner of 35 years it was the worst. But losing my baby brother is the most horrible thing. I have been very ill and not kept contact as I should with people I care about but as we all can see life is short so we must make the best of it and do the best we can one day at a time.
Memories are the best thing we have in our lives and that will stay with us forever.
God Bless and Keep You.
Sharon
MySpace, Face Book, and your journal aren't going anywhere. One day you might want to continue with them, and they will wait patiently for you.
As for your journal, who knows when the desire to express a few thoughts will hit you. I know from my blog on MySpace I can write half a dozen times in a week, and then not be in the mood to for months. So I will wait patiently for the times you choose to write.
I like having several options availible to me - blogging, reserching family history, creating the memorial pictures, and the family website. I can do whichever tickles my fancy each day!
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